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ज़िन्दगी का ये नया मोड़ बहुत ही सुहाना सा लगने लगा था। तुम्हारे पास आकर , फिर से खुद से जुड़ने लगा था। तुमसे मिलकर अब सब कुछ भूलने भी लगा था। तुम्हारी पनाहों में हमेशा रहने की दुआ करने लगा था। मैं बदलने लगा था।

Dear Love,
I am so excited to meet you. I thought we won’t be able to meet for a long long time. I hadn’t been expecting you to visit me, I wonder when will you come to see me. I still don’t know whether you also feel my love as intensely I feel it inside of me. I don’t know whether you love me or not, it’s so difficult to pretend that I love you so much, and it’s so difficult to confess it to you. Your face makes it so difficult to say anything, so I hide it.

What if I always have been a good person, always did a good deed but the universe decides to pull you away from me? There is actually no us? Well, I know this can be true and has a 100% probability to happen that we may never get each other. Am I scared? No! I would cherish each and every moment, tiny microsecond, being in love with you, cause that’s how life is!

I want to call you, I want to meet you. I want to, but I don’t have a reason, I don’t know what to say, I cannot find a reason to justify my strong grown devotion for you. I am unable to understand this heartfelt burning desire to meet, to talk, to see you again and how would I ever be able to explain it to you?

That day, that day has been marked as the most important day in my life. It was your birthday. I tattooed it forever. 1st of July.

I am looking at the pictures of you and I can’t get enough of you. I am reminded of our very first trip that we did together. Oh, what a beautiful day.

I am reminded of the days gone by and I want to travel with you again. Whatever it was, for no matter how little it was, I wish it could have been something more.

I smile remembering the gifts you bought me. The first chocolates! I am still eating them, thinking about eating them from your mouth instead, when you would kiss me and all I can taste is chocolate in your mouth.

I come back home and I lay down in bed looking at the shell. I am taken back in time and all I can see is your face, your priceless expression, your live, love and laugh motto of life. Your joyous face, your football kicks, you singing along the music, humming to the tunes.

We run towards the park and we swing, we relive the first meeting together, we play, we walk on the walls, we ride the bicycle, we laugh, we talk and in the moments I spend with you, an overthinker like me forgets to think, my mind is all out, my heart is all in my eyes, pouring all the love out on you.